Time keeps on ticking .....

Time doesn't seem to fit precisely right. It's like wearing someone else's shoes, or a shirt that was sewn a little skewed in the seams. Time is an arbitrary, mortal construct, forced over the head and shoulders of infinite, immortal beings. We need some way of measuring, but it isn't our natural state. Our minds play tricks with it sometimes, and are the precise masters of it at others.

Have you ever had the experience of waking up 1 minute before your alarm goes off? I went for years without ever setting an external alarm. I would look at the clock before bed, tell myself what time I needed to wake up, and then like magic I would! I never over slept, not once! The internal clock is perfection!

Marking the passage of time is an odd thing. It is especially odd here in Hawaii. Everyday is pretty much the same, like Ground Hog Day. It could be yesterday, or 6 months ago, it looks like the same dang day. It would be an 85 degree and sunny day, but the same as any other, none the less. There is no external sensory input to help you place an event on a reliable time table in your memory. Here in Hawaii the stage setting and back drop are pretty much identical from day to day. You can't say, "Oh yes, I remember, that happened some time in spring, before the snow melted, so it was early spring, March I think." It just doesn't work. The last three years are a blur. Lots of memories, but it would be hard to tell you what happened when, or even what happened before what.

As of sometime this morning, it has been 40 years since I arrived here on the earth's surface. I know that the BIG 4 O is supposed to be a milestone of sorts, but I pretty much feel the same. It would have been a great excuse to do something extraordinary. I had several good ideas, but I didn't do any of them. It was pretty much a day like any other. I worked some, played some, spent time with family and friends. It was a nice slice of what my life has become, and I like that.